Friday, December 31, 2010

Resolutions?

Instead of New Year's Resolutions, I focused on was the idea of "one little word."
You choose one word and make defining that an ongoing goal all year long.
Last year my word was "clean."
I was tired of the house clutter, tired of feeling like crap, tired of the place I was in spiritually because my focus wasn't always where it should be.
 I wanted to feel clean in every way, physically, spiritually, mentally--- all of it.

I look back now and can see I did pretty darned well with that one little word.
We donated truckloads of stuff to charity and cleaned out a lot of the space here. From may until Christmas break I was totally caught up on laundry- every single day.

(Cleaner Clothes)
The year supply got organized and my scrapbooking room is a space I can use now.

(Cleaner Basement)
I lost about 20 pounds, I still have more to lose, but 20 pounds is 20 pounds.
Matt and I got sealed in the temple last year- that made a tremendous change in our lives. 
I didn't think it would be such a big change, but I have felt the blessings from that every day. The stress of blending this family doesn't devastate me anymore and turn me into pulp. It's still hard, but I handle things much better. I have a good marriage and relationship - wise, I want for nothing.

(Cleaner Hands,)
I ended some relationships that were horrible for my soul and interestingly enough- I felt cleaner and better with those people out of my life. I'm not going back to that stupid drama.

I started working on family history to replace TV at night and clean my evening routine up.
When I cleaned out all of that spiritual, emotional and physical junk, it opened up space for things that brought me joy. More joy than I knew existed. The person I am has changed because of the events of last year and the focus on that one little word.
The dust bunnies still have a thriving population and there are still things in my fridge that are radioactive. I still say bad words and tell the ladies at knit night dirty jokes to make them giggle. I'm still me, but I do feel my life is fundamentally cleaner.
One little word was a good way to go for me.
Ali Edwards is doing a class this year at Big Picture Scrapbooking for One Little Word.


I'm not taking the class, but it sounds like a lot of fun.

So what's my One Little Word for 2011?
Stay tuned tomorrow and I'll tell you.
And maybe I'll add a dirty joke or two........

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Snow Dog

I know yesterday I said I'd have a word post, I got busy. I don't think anyone noticed or cared.
We're making serious progress on the basement and Matt and Parker did the insulation last night, we got drywall this afternoon and will start on that this evening. I'm so excited now that we are finally at a point where I can help out and we can make some serious progress. We may just have that room done next month.
Matt was scheduled to return to work today after 2 wonderful weeks off, but Mother Nature had a different idea. Taylorsville got 13+ inches of snow last night and it just started snowing again. It is freezing outside and Matt had to just telecommute today.
I'm not complaining one bit, I have loved having him home all break.


 Romy bundled up and headed outside to the winter wonderland. Greyson followed her but came back in after 5 minutes and one attempt at a snow angel.
He came in an announced "Well, that's done. I made my yearly snow angel. I don't have to do that again until 2011."
Rosie was having a great time playing in the snow. She looked so cute jumping through the drifts.



Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Mostly Wordless Wednesday

I have words, but I'll write them later.
Until then, I'll be THAT pet owner and post a picture of Wrigley on Christmas Eve night.
I think he heard sleigh bells.... or a bird in distress.

Monday, December 27, 2010

I Love Being a Nerd

Today we went out to Utah County to have a visit with Matt's folks. Dad got the gift that makes you swear for Christmas.
No, not a puppy- but kidney stones.
Ouch ouch ouch.

(Dad O & Matt--quite some years before kidney stones......about 1972/1973)
We brought the 4 girls down and had a nice visit, Mom and I hid away in the basement and had some girl talk, just the two of us. I probably could have stayed there yakking with her for at least nothera hour or two, but Matt came and found us and made us act sociable.

He also wanted lunch, so we all met and grabbed a bite to eat and then we headed back home.
I can't express really just how wonderful it has been having Matt home these past few weeks and spending all of this time with him. I really did marry my best friend and he's hot as heck.

(ick.... almost no make-up and pulled back hair, they can't all be beauty queen pictures)

I have high hopes for some real progress being made on the basement, and getting my scrapbooking groove back.
Wow, I just said "scrapbooking groove."
I have reached a new level of nerdness.
Excuse me while I put on my Crocs and John Mayer CD.....
Anyway- I did these yesterday. Paper is fun.


Sunday, December 26, 2010

The Glue Sticks Still Work

Yesterday really was a great day.

I think the kids watched Doctor Who all night, they're watching it this morning.
The BBC Christmas episode aired yesterday and we watched it as a family- minus Parker.
We are such nerds, but we loved it.
I also took some "me" time to reward myself for pulling off a holiday that was pretty darn near perfect for a family of 9. I headed down to the scrap cave and did a couple of new layouts to help warm up for the 2011 LOAD challenge.
Yeah, I'm doing it again.
They held the challenge 3 times last year and I failed twice and didn't participate once.
Life happens.
 I made up for it by doing a lot of cooking and family stuff.
So anyway....short story long.....I did some scrapbooking yesterday.



Saturday, December 25, 2010

The Christmas Post...short and sweet

(To see the pictures better, click on the picture and boost your screen size.)

It's been a great couple of days.
Bowling and Hire's for my birthday, spazzy kids and so many presents.
SantaMatt got me a Kindle for my birthday and a tablet for Christmas.
SantaChris blew the budget by about 25 bucks, SantaMatt blew it off the planet.
SantaChris will remember this in July and will repay the spoiling.
We had Chinese for Christmas lunch and everyone agreed we will do that agian every year.
SantaDadandMom brought the kids an Xbox Kinect and even though they weren't actually surprised, they were really excited and happy.


Merry Christmas!!!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Memories of Birthdays Past


(First Birthday)

My 16th birthday was a turning point for me in my life.

(16th Birthday, also celebrated with Lindsey)

(Nice hair, Sunnie and where were my pants?)

We lived in Mesa, Arizona and our family was pretty close to destitute, but we still had more than some in the section 8 housing complex we were living in. My brother and I were old enough to work and we had jobs so that any spare money my folks had that year could go towards our sisters and we also could help out.
I went to school and worked all evening at Jack in the Box. When I'd get done with my shift, there was a lady in the complex who had JUST joined the church and she had 5 kids, all small and she had NOTHING. She worked at Burger King during the late shift and every evening I'd go oer to her place and babysit for her. Her house had no toys and the only furniture she had was one mattress on the floor of one of the rooms. She had some food through church welfare and I'd make the kids dinner and take them upstairs to the mattress and snuggle them all in while I told them stories my Grandma use to tell me-- Little Black Sambo, Epaminondas and her warped fairy tale Little Red Hood- where Red Riding Hood is the neighborhood thug and the wolf was doing everyone a favor in getting rid of her.

(Not the actual book, but a Google image of the actual book Grandma use to read me.Close enough.)

After some stories I'd sing the kids to sleep, all in that one bed together. Songs about Romulus and Remus, Bye baby Bunting and Mocking birds. I'd sing songs about Jesus and songs about the sun coming up, tomorrow.
Those children loved me and how I loved them. Those poor kids who had nothing. Their mom, not wanting to lose me as a babysitter would pay pretty competitive wages and knowing she could not afford it, I would go through the motions of taking the money from her and then putting it back either under her door or on her kitchen counter when I left each time she paid me.
One night as the little ones layed asleep in the bedroom I watched out on that clear chilly Arizona winter night and opened the window as the clock turned to midnight and I turned 16.


A milestone had been hit.
I was alive, I didn't have any babies and I had made it further than a lot of women in my life already. I was entering territory that none of the adults I was close to had been in. It was time to choose my own path and only I and God knew what was going to be best for me. I stood there at that open window for a long time, fingers freezing and made some choices. Fail or succeed, I would make my own way, I would follow the light that I saw and I would own my decisions. I was not going to be a victim, I was not going to be a martyr and i was not going to be a Saint. I was going to be me. I knew I'd make some glorious mistakes and I sure did. I also knew I would have moments of triumph and that I would figure out and learn what so many women in my family tree gave up on learning when life just got too damned hard. I knew life would be really really hard and I knew and decided I was going to keep going.

Some people make New Year's resolutions.
I make midnight birthday resolutions and I keep those.
I think newly 16 year old Chris would be proud of newly 38 Chris, although she would mourn the loss of gravity blessing my body.
I have kept those promises I made to myself all of those years ago.
I have much to learn and far to go but I am sure of my steps and holding my own.

That little family in Arizona.....I know the ward finally realized she was in need and they took over helping her. The YW sponsored her for Christmas and my brother and I bought her kids a lot of gifts. The Bishop got them a DI order and they got furniture and my mom helped her get licensed to do daycare out of her home so she could quit the Burger King gig and be with her little ones.
God looked after her and her children, as he looks after us all.
I am thankful for how he has looked after me.
I am blessed, blessed, blessed.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

School Christmas Program & Other Boring Stuff

I'm only posting because Sarah made me. :)
(We miss you Sarah and I can't imagine Bear is a big brother now!)
I haven't posted because I've been busy, but boring busy.

With Christmas less than a week away, I'm glad that I'm done with all of the stressful stuff and all I have left to do is listen to Christmas music, smooch my sweet husband who has the whole Christmas break off and bake yummy things that make my teenagers want to stay home every night.
This week I made baked macaroni and cheese and holiday rum flavored cake.

It was so yummy and perfect for the cold snowy night.
I also made some "NSFW" cakes for two of Matt's non-LDS employees.
I also made seafoam candy today and if my stinkin' hip would stop aching, I'll bring some to knit night.
Today was the Christmas Program at the elementary school, I'm not a big fan of things like this, but it's Grey's last year to ever do this and the kids are awfully cute.
They only had each grade do 3-4 songs this year and that was really nice.
Romy loves this kind of thing. She could have done 10 songs and still kept going.
She's adorable, she really is.


Grey is the wiggly kid in the back row, center.
He totally stopped singing about halfway through song #2, but last year he wasn't willing to sing at all, he just did what he does during the Primary programs- he faked it with exaggerated lip syncing and annoyed glares at the audience.
I hope the videos work, if not, I'll fix it tomorrow.
Two more sleeps until my birthday....I will be 38 and therefore, I still can think that 40 is old.


Sunday, December 19, 2010

Take a Picture

Emma is taking a photography class at school and asked if I'd go out with her and help her take some good pictures to turn in. She said they'd talked about lighting and the rule of thirds in class.  I helped her apply the rule of thirds to spaces that aren't as clearly divided into thirds, such as a tree or to create weight in the picture by the angle you shoot from.
Things of equal size can carry a different weight in a photograph if you change the angle you are shooting from. I talked to her about how textures can change how interesting a picture is and encouraged her to experiment with ordinary things in new angles.



I took a few shots to show her some examples of angles and perspective to help accomplish the things they are learning in her class without just looking through the viewfinder and and making an obvious "thirds" division.

Mostly though, we just had a nice Sunday walk while we snapped pictures around the neighborhood.
I hope she ended up with a few good pictures for her class.
This has been a good weekend with the kids.
 Matt has the next few weeks off work and it's been nice to just spend time together doing family things.

We're all looking forward to winter break and a fun Christmas morning with all seven of these beasties.

Christmas Concert

Last night we were invited to attend a Christmas concert with our friends, Chad and Lori Larsen. Chad works with Peter Breinholt and got great tickets to his Christmas show and we were excited to have a fun double date with a great couple. Matt and I were not familiar with his music and when I told the gals at knit night- they gasped and told me he was wonderful and couldn't believe i didn't know who he was.
Sorry-- I'm not actually from Utah and if he didn't wear eyeliner and wail in the 1990's- I'm probably not going to be familiar with the music. :)
I went, having heard none of his music before.
Holy Happy.
It was wonderful, absolutely wonderful. I had such a great time. I'm hooked. Love love love Peter Breinholt now. I came home and started downloading music from itunes.

Thanks Chad & Lori for inviting us, you guys are so sweet.

Also........this guy:

Is super hyper and all Christmas Spazzed out today. It's pretty cute but Matt-a-Claus is spreading an awful lot of  Christmas cheer for it being so early in the morning.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Dumb Dog

"That's what happens when you eat chocolate, Dummy" -Matt
Rosie cannot resist eating whatever junk she finds and even though it is terrible for her and makes her sick for two days, if she finds chocolate, she eats it up. She found a half a box of unfinished Milk Duds from the trip and ate it, box and all.

I love you, but you're kind of dumb, Rosie.

Food, Glorious Food

Thank you for all of the fun and sweet comments on my vacation post.It was such an amazing trip and I had experiences there that have changed me forever and made me see things in a way I  hadn't before. 
My bigger picture became clearer.
And my husband is incredible. I am so happy I get to be with him forever and ever and that we found each other.
That whole finding my soulmate thing worked out really well.


After two full days of cleaning, the house is back to normal and it was time to re-stock the kitchen with Christmas treats.
I got the give-a-way treats out of the way first.
Chicago Style Popcorn mix for the home teaching families and "Orange You Glad We're Neighbors?" gifts for those who are stuck listening to Rosie yap.
 I made meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner. Matt has been craving it and I didn't know that until he got annoyed that the Boston Market at the food court in the Air and Space Museum didn't have it on the menu.
Even with Parker gone, that was barely enough to satisfy this family who were living on Hot Pockets and cafeteria food for too long. They ate it all and I realized I need to make it more often.
 I made another batch of caramel and got them all wrapped.
So good.
 I made another batch of toffee. I have had some bad batches this year- two of the three batches I made separated and sugared up. I think it was because my pan was cheap, and that if i used my good pan, they'd be fine. Betty told me when she uses half margarine and half real butter she never has a problem so I tried that and she was right- perfect perfect.
 I also made a batch of Cream cheese peanut butter fudge.

That's right, there are marshmallows, cream cheese, chocolate and peanut butter all married together in sweet sugary bliss. Parker nearly died with happiness. This year he has really embraced the Christmas Candy, normally he turns his nose at it because he is a teenager and he MUST act like a total turd, but this year I can hardly keep the stuff stocked.
That makes me happy.
Cooking for my family and having them enjoy it makes me very happy.
They're all rotten to the core, but I love them all and I want them to know that I want them to feel loved and nurtured. I want them to define "home" with good food Mom made, and clean towels and a place they can just leave the stress and pressure from the world behind them.
After 17 years of being a Mom, I'm finally starting to feel like I have figured a few things out- not everything- but enough that I realize I have come a long way and I am totally on the path I wish to be on.
 I have a long way to go, but I'm headed the right direction.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Before I Forget it All..

The vacation post.....

Cue next slide and Pray for death as I blabber about our vacation.

The vacation was a bit of a surprise- a last minute (month) thing we decided to do.
 I didn't want to say anything about it so that she who must not be named didn't try and ruin it.
Tickets went on sale at Southwest, so Matt and I decided that for our Christmas gift to each other, we needed a "Sparkly."
 I told him to surprise me and he decided on Washington DC.
Washington DC was at the top of my list of places I wanted to see in the whole world.
He knows me so well and oh, how he makes me feel so loved. I am lucky, lucky.
I think I need to smooch him RIGHT NOW just in case he forgot how much I love him.
Hang on....
Done-- now back to the vacation.
Our hotel was a block away from the White House.
How cool is that?
The freaking WHITE HOUSE.
After checking in, we headed right over.

It looks bigger on TV. :)
We saw Obama's Christmas tree and took a few pictures that didn't turn out well.
It was so super cool.
The next day we headed out to the Mall.
We visited the WWII Memorial. It was stunning.

The architecture of DC is very different from that of Chicago. It's still a big city but so much granite and marble. Chicago has a lot of  brick. Clean open lines as opposed to Al Capone looking alleys.
Before the Wall, we passed the Korean War memorial, but I had skipped breakfast and was feeling crappy so Matt took the camera to check it out. The pictures are awesome, what a haunting memorial. I should have gone, but I was freezing and needed hot cocoa.


Another difference between the Windy City and DC is that there isn't jack crap to stop and eat or pee in DC along the way to places- at least not in the winter. Chicago has a Dunkin Donuts or McDonald's on every block.
The Lincoln memorial had bathrooms. Yay bathrooms!
When we walked into the main part, both Matt and I started to cry.


The scale and reverence of that place was overwhelming. The words of Lincoln were on the walls and the realization of all that he stood for struck us hard. It really hit us that his big issues wasn't so much slavery- which he felt was wrong but in unifying the states. He wanted slavery to end, but if it didn't- fine- he wasn't going to allow this nation to divide itself. Stand or fall, we were doing it together.
As a family who undergoes a tremendous amount of pressure to divide because evil dictators aren't happy after losing the right to rule us-- some of the ideals struck a different chord with me and I was reminded that if we do not keep working at being one united family (that doesn't include exes) that this family will fall. we have to find a way to make sure that we keep the connections together, the ties that define who were are as the Olson family united.
And I get that the Civil War had nothing to do with stepfamilies, but the idea of a house divided against itself was one I needed some fresh inspiration on. 
The Lincoln Memorial was amazing. It was my favorite. It was this whole "Holy crap, we are really here. We are in Washington DC" experience.
After that we went to the Wall.

 As you walk into the Memorial the wall gets taller and taller and you go lower into the ground. By the time you are at the center you cannot hear the traffic and it feels quiet and the weight of all of those men settles in.
So many brothers, so many sons, so many fathers.
Such loss.
When we saw Niel's name we again both started to full on bawl. We saw Bobby Shelton's name near his and it was impossible not to lose it. Niel died trying to save him.
Matt touched his name and the tears came on strong.
I love my mother in law so much, I feel such a connection with her, she is one of my best friends and also has been such a support to me. I have listened to the stories about her big brother and cried with her. As I stood there, I felt her presence with me and I cried. I cried for his son, I cried for his friends and for his mother and mostly, I cried for Maggie. His little sister who is still feeling the pain of this loss every single day.
We left the letter, Mom, and the pictures.

we told everyone who stopped to look about Niel and about the Bobs and about bobby Shelton. A vet spoke to us and chuckled at the pictures, noticing how fresh the clothing and hair was and how he could tell he was green by the pictures. We saw a nearby family trying to reach a name to do a rubbing and Matt went over to help them. Being freakishly tall is a gift, even if it sucks on airplanes.
We told them all about your big brother, Mom. We told them how you missed him. We left the picture and the letter at the wall and watched as people came by and read about your big brother as they walked by- how they put a face to that name. One woman read your letter and reached out and touched his name.

I left the Wall feeling like Niel would have been glad to see us there and glad to know you still think of him, and that he wants you to tell the happy stories from the time you guys were kids. Those stories need to be written down and he wants to be remembered for the happy days he was here on this Earth, even though they were cut short.

The rest of the trip involved a lot of being tired. It was a lot of walking.
We went to the Washington monument and the Holocaust Museum that first day. I think we were both too tired to get a ton out of either place. That night after dark we went back to the White house and checked out the national Christmas tree.
Way cool.

Day 2 it rained and we hit the Smithsonians. We went to the Museum of natural History and the Air and Space Museum.
We were in nerd heaven.
We saw the Hope Diamond, original Muppets, C-3PO and so many rockets and spaceships. We could have stayed all day at each place.



There were still half a dozen museums we never even got to.
The last place we checked out before our little trip was over was the National Archives. No pictures allowed, but we saw the Declaration of Independence, the Constitution and the Bill of Rights. The originals. John Hancock signed and all. It was really neat but we were SO SO TIRED it overshadowed the experience. I just wanted to sit down.

By the next morning we were so tired and didn't know how we were even going to walk to the train depot to get back home.
DC was amazing.
My husband is amazing.
Things we learned for next time......
The memorials are incredible but it's a long walk.
The museums... you can't see them all in one trip but they kick all sorts of butt.
People in DC have two uniforms they wear. Either a black wool peacoat and scarf or they are out in shorty shorts jogging. Lots of joggers. Matt said they can run all they like but they are still ugly. we started to make mean jogger jokes. If you are a jogger and that offends you, feel better about yourself knowing that I'm fat.
The Las Vegas airport is a hellhole. Avoid it at all costs.
Bring Tylenol and a heating pad for your sore muscles and quit when you get too tired or you won't enjoy some of the cool things as much as you could.
CVS closes at 5pm on the weekends in downtown DC, so if you were hoping to grab some snacks for the hotel after a day of looking around, forget it.
If you leave your ex in charge of your house while you are away.......well, just don't do it. The house is back in shape but the kids are still on my crap list. The ex always has been there, so that's nothing new.


I promise this is the short version of our trip and I'll only do the one big post ( and possibly a dozen scrapbooking layouts in February when LOAD starts up again.) If you made it this far, I owe you a cookie.